Today Sucks

I woke up with cramping and a little spotting this morning. I also tested (before I noticed the spotting) and got a BFN. Mother's Day sucks as it is since I've lost both of my grandmothers and my mother, but this year is even harder. I've been TTC for almost 2 years. I should have a 3 1/2 month old, and I should be celebrating my first Mother's Day. Instead, I'm sitting here waiting for my period to show up and avoiding FB because I feel like it won't take much to make me cry today.

On the bright side, today is supposed to be a beautiful, sunny, 80 degree day. I plan to spend the day outside working in my yard. My lawn needs to be mowed, and my flower beds need to be cared for since I haven't touched them since the fall. I'm hoping that enjoying the beautiful weather and making my yard look pretty will help to make me appreciate all of the good things in my life because I'm having a hard time seeing the good right now.