I'm a wino.

Over the last couple of years, I've progressively become more and more of a wino. I love going to different wineries and doing tastings, so my taste in wine has expanded from just drinking moscato (which is way too sweet for me now) to drinking a lot more reds than whites.

Anyway, I bought a new bottle of red today to try and it might be my new favorite. It's a red blend and best of all, it was only $8.

Yum!

On to cycle 8...

I woke up this morning to CD27/12DPO, but my temperature was pretty low, so I knew my period was going to start in the very near future. Sure enough, about an hour into my work day, it showed up. Another 26 day cycle? I guess shorter cycles are probably much less frustrating than longer ones, but it sucks when you're surprised by your period earlier than expected. I am glad I got the heads-up with the low temp this morning, though. Otherwise it would've totally caught me off-guard at work.

So, now that it's CD 1, it looks like the H and I will be ordering pizza tonight and drinking some wine.



Cheers!

Random thoughts...

1. TTC can make the most logical person become a loon in the two week wait.

Today, I was at a friend's house and she's got two dogs. One is super excitable and always jumps all over me, the other usually sniffs me and then goes to lay down. Today, the one who usually hardly pays attention to visitors was all over me. Then, when the other dog was trying to jump on me, she started to growl at him and the two of them started to "fight." My friend was like, "Ok, she's having a weird reaction to you today." My first thought was, "Maybe I'm pregnant and she can sense it." Then I came to my senses and wanted to punch myself for even letting my thoughts wander in that direction.

2. Fertility Friend's referral program rocks!

I've used Fertility Friend since July and have had the VIP version pretty much the whole time, for free. I got my first 30 days of VIP free when I signed up and I've gotten 5 days here and 5 days there on a pretty consistent basis since then because of people signing up using my ticker. I've also had people sign up for a VIP membership using my ticker twice (including today), so that's given me 30 days of VIP free each time! The complementary version isn't terrible, but getting VIP for free is pretty cool.

3. 2-4" of snow isn't a major storm.

We're expecting some snow tonight and from what I was hearing, you'd think we were getting a major blizzard. All of the predictions I've seen are saying 2-4" which is nothing. I've had four people ask me if I think school will be cancelled. Um, no, I don't. Not unless we get more snow than expected.

Nothing like a baby...

There's nothing like a crawling baby to show you just how dirty your house is. My friend came by this morning with her adorable 10 month old son and I thought I had cleaned really well ahead of time, but those hidden cat hair tumble weeds that I missed while vacuuming? Yep, he found those. My goodness, his pants were so dusty after crawling around that you would've never known I just swept and vacuumed this morning. Apparently, my idea of a clean house is not clean enough to have a baby crawling around. So embarrassing.

Mixed Emotions

A good friend/coworker of mine is pregnant. She found out the sex on Monday (it's a boy!) and today was showing me her sonogram pictures. I am so beyond excited for her and loved looking at the pictures, but walked away feeling a little sad too. It's not jealousy, I don't think, it's just that I have no idea when I'll get to be in her shoes. Seven months of trying to get pregnant is nothing compared to what some people go through, but there's no end in sight. I have to remind myself sometimes that this very well could be the month because I'm to the point where I pretty much just assume my period will show up on time since that's what's been happening since July.

I'm so happy for my friend and love to see everything working out for her just as she planned, but every once in a while, talking about her pregnancy reminds me that no matter what I try, I'm still not pregnant.

Anyway, I guess the good news is that I'm 3dpo and we had pretty decent timing this cycle (O-3, O-1, O). Fingers crossed.

Sick

I woke up yesterday with a scratchy throat that progressively got worse throughout the day. This morning, I woke up feeling like crap, and now my throat is killing me. I'm really hoping this isn't the beginning of the flu that is apparently spreading rapidly around MA. Not only do I NOT want the flu, it's also really terrible timing. I'll likely ovulate in the next day or two and I don't want being sick to ruin our timing for this cycle. Blah.

They really are everywhere.

I've heard that when you're ttc, you see pregnant people everywhere, but I don't think it's just me noticing. They really are everywhere.

My best friend had a baby a month ago, my cousin had a baby a week ago, three of my coworkers are pregnant (due in March, April, and June), and I just found out today that a former coworker of mine is pregnant. The last time I saw this girl was in August before school started. I had been ttc for a month and she was starting to think about possibly trying in the fall. She's due at the end of May, so she got pregnant about two months after we had that conversation.

I know that no one else's fertility has anything to do with mine, but it still sucks to have pregnancy announcements everywhere I turn.

Here I am

I decided today that starting a blog might be a good idea. My husband and I are on our 7th cycle trying to get pregnant and sometimes I feel like I need a place to vent my frustrations with the process, so here I am…

My husband and I are both 30 years old and we’ve been married for 4.5 years. When we first got married, we were 26 years old and had no desire to start trying for a baby yet. After a couple of years, we started to feel emotionally ready to have a baby, but the financial aspect scared the crap out of us. Kids are expensive! The biggest worry was the cost of daycare. We looked at our budget and just couldn’t figure out where we’d get $1,000-1,500 a month to pay for it. I started to worry that we’d never feel financially secure enough to start trying to get pregnant.

Then, at the beginning of July 2012, everything fell into place. My husband got a significant raise  and the school where I work approved an on-site daycare for staff that would have very competitive prices. At that point, the conversation with my husband went like this:

Me: You know what your raise will pay for?
Him: What?
Me: Daycare!
Him: I guess we don't have any excuses anymore.

I was just about to begin my next cycle, so I stopped birth control at that point and we began this journey. I didn’t expect to still be trying to get pregnant six months later, but here I am.