Mothers' Day

I've hated Mothers' Day for almost as long as I can remember. I lost my mom when I was 14 and so, understandably, Mothers' Day has been really hard since then. I always got my aunts and grandmother cards/gifts, and when my dad was married, I would buy things for my stepmom too, but it was always a really hard day.

Now that I'm older, it seems to be even more difficult. I've lost both my grandmothers, my aunts all have their kids and grandkids to celebrate with, I don't have a stepmom anymore (thank God), and my MIL lives out of state...not that I'd really want to celebrate with her anyway. Not only that, but being 30 years old and married, people have gotten kind of awkward with me when it comes to Mothers' Day. It's like I'm supposed to have kids and they don't know what to say to me. One of my coworkers was coming around on Friday wishing a happy Mothers' Day to the moms on my floor and when she came to my classroom, she was like, "Happy Mothers' Day. Um, I mean, happy Women's Day! It's a day to celebrate all women." I know she meant well, but it was weird.

On top of all of that this year, I haven't gotten pregnant yet. If I had gotten KU on the first try, I'd have a one month old right now. My journey hasn't been as long as many other ladies, I know, but we're getting closer to that one year mark and the reality of probably needing medical intervention is setting in. That just makes this Mothers' Day that much harder. I don't have any moms to celebrate with and I have no idea when/if I'll become a mom myself. I guess I can still hope that I'll have a little one next year?