Two weeks ago, on New Year's Day, I had some bleeding. I had an ultrasound the next day (my second) and the baby measured right on track with a strong heartbeat. Then, yesterday, I should've been 10 weeks, and I started bleeding again, but this time there were awful cramps. I had to wait all day to get into my doctor's office, and then they couldn't get me in for an ultrasound until 9:30pm at the hospital, but at 10:00 last night I found out that the baby stopped growing at 9 weeks and has no heartbeat. I'm home from work again today waiting to hear from my doctor about scheduling a D&C.
Right now, I'm not sure what to feel. I'm devastated. We saw the heartbeat twice. We felt confident. We told people who now we have to untell and I'm sick to my stomach about it. I'm angry about how unfair this all is. I'm stressed thinking about going through fertility treatments again.
:'-( I am so so sorry Beth. It is so unfair. Sending you great big hugs <3
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