Memorial Bracelet

Today, I went to pick up the basket I won in the raffle over the weekend. While I was there, I got to pick out an Alex and Ani bracelet that I wanted as part of the prize. This is the one I chose:

It's a team USA bracelet that stands for strength and determination. I liked the meaning of it, but I also chose it in memory of my January Snowflake who should have been born last month. This bracelet is my way to remember the baby we should have, but also to remind me of how strong I am and that I just need to keep working towards our goal of having a child. 

Wine, Chocolate, and Snow

Today, the H and I went to a local winery for a wine tasting. They were having a Valentine's Day special tasting that included cheese, crackers, fruit, and chocolate, so we took full advantage. It was all very yummy, but by the time we left, the snow was really starting to accumulate outside. I got some pretty pictures, but it was slow-going on the way home. We're home safe and sound now, and will probably be opening a bottle of wine soon. I love a good snow storm...and wine. I definitely love wine.






Edited to add.....
I just got an email from the winery that I won a gift basket in a raffle today! The basket has a bottle of sparkling wine (what's in my glass in the picture above), two champagne flutes, chocolates, a certificate for a tasting for 2, and an Alex and Ani bracelet of my choice. Yay me! :)

Cycle 20

Cycle 20 just started. It's hard to believe we've gotten to this point. Cycle 20 just seems that much closer to two years, and I'm feeling down about it. :(

Hopefully the H and I get to celebrate Valentine's Day with lots of wine and chocolate this weekend. I need it.

Cycle 19

As I expected, my "pretty" chart meant nothing. My period started yesterday, right on time, and I'm now on cycle 19 (8 TTCAL). It's hard to believe we've been at this for as long as we have.

Triphasic

Implantation Signs: Possibly Triphasic on Day 22. Thanks, Fertility Friend. How the heck am I supposed to remain calm during my LP when this is the notification you gave me when I input this morning's temp? I'm fully aware that pretty charts mean nothing, but finally getting that elusive triphasic pattern after 18 months TTC is hard to ignore.  Even with the BFN I got this morning, my hopes are up, and I'm afraid I'm setting myself up for disappointment. :(

One year ago

A year ago today I started this blog. We were on month 6, cycle 7 of TTC and I was starting to feel frustrated with the process. I decided to start this blog so that I'd have a place to vent my frustrations. A year ago, I never would've expected that we'd still be TTC at this point. I guess no one expects to struggle to try to have a baby.

Cycle update:

I ovulated on CD 15 which was 3 days ago. We ended up with -5, -3, and -2 for timing. Not the greatest, but not bad either. Now, I'm having some pretty bad cramps and lower back pain. Hopefully this doesn't continue until my period starts.

Hercules

Almost a year ago, I wrote a blog post similar to this one about Nemo. This storm, Hercules, wasn't nearly as bad, but we did get around a foot of snow and are planning to stay bundled up in the house for the day. Just like with Nemo, the timing worked out perfectly with a +OPK this morning. What TTCer doesn't want to be snowed in with her hubby when it's her FW? :)  We've had decent timing so far, but I'm hoping he's up for some more sexy time today. Fingers crossed.

Here are a couple of snow pictures for your viewing pleasure.